My Life Story

Everything feels like its being put on fast forward, so many people are stepping up, so many things are happening. I just feel so excited at the things that are happening around me. Compared to a few months back, someone has really poured oil on us :-). So many things I wanted to write here, but kind of forgotten some of them....

I was just thinking through and realised how I was taking in taking in and taking more in but never pouring out. I was just sucking knowledge, but not practicing it. I was just thinking, what next after PPDL, and I was thinking of what more books to read, than it just hit me, faith without works is nothing. What have I really been doing differently after reading the PPDL? So I decided to take baby-steps to implementing it in my life, and I'll start with one area, and then carrying on to the next and so on. And I'm not saying that I won't read more Christian books, of course I will, but I'll also place emphasis on acting it out as well.

And I also realised the importance of having someone to always be there to push you, and support you if you ever fall down. I was always climbing, than falling back again before this. Let me just share with you my Christian life story.

I was born in a Christian family. My parents were church leaders, and I went to Sunday school every week last time. I remember going all over the place, Puchong, Seapark, Subang, just following my parents wherever they went. I remember wanting to skip Sunday school every week as well....hahaha, whenever I had the opportunity, I wouldn't go, except Aunty Lai Fong's class :-), I always loved her classes. Yes, this is coming from Sunday School's golden boy :-).

But during my childhood years, I wasn't spiritually aware, the first time where I actually came to seek God was in Standard 6. Sometime in the middle of the year, I started having the desire to read the Bible, and so I did. For some reason, I always read it when my parents weren't around...hahah don't know why, I guess I didn't want them to make a fuss about anything. I read quite a lot, I think I read Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, Acts. And I remember writing in a book, all the verses from those books that spoke out to me (sadly I don't know where it is anymore :-( ). And I remember having this project of wanting to create something that everyday you can change the verse, and there'll be another verse there kind of thing :-). Yeah....

Then I started getting lazy, and I stopped reading the Bible. At that time, there wasn't anyone to push me, so I just remained stagnant. In Form 1, I remember going to Trailblazers for the first time. I remember twisting my arm there, playing Twisters with them (which I lost to Nat), and at that time, there weren't many people my age there, only Nat. I remember that was the only time I want to cell, the first and the last time for a very long time. Form 1 and Form 2 was just a stagnant year, I wasn't growing, I attended God's Channel, and it was fun, yeah but I wasn't growing.

Then end of Form 2 came, and we had Youth Camp. Youth camp was awesome, and it was a spark in my dead life. Form 3 came, and Form 3 for me, was a year of commitments. I made a lot of commitments to God, commitments that I'm still keeping now. Then I realised how hard it was to keep commitments, and I stopped making more, unless it was something that was really important for me. Sadly, I have broken some of them, but I'm always trying my best to keep them, bouncing back from every failure than I made. And then CF Camp came, and that I think was probably the highlight of the year. God was so real to me in that place, and for once, I could just be free to worship Him, without bonds or anything to hold me back, I remember how many times he touched me during the camp. Everlasting Fire, I'll never forget that. But it wasn't a fairytale run after that, at some point after that, the fire in me started dimming and dimming.

Then I was put into the position of being a core. Being a core at that time, I didn't do much, was just put in charge of people and all that stuff. And I was doing everything out of duty, doing everything because David asked me to do it. I was still very much in a shell at that time. I was stuggling a lot with quiet time at that time. The rest of the year just went the same as this, I probably did make some progress in Form 3 though. Despite all this, I still did not move much, because everytime I fell, I really fell and stayed there for a long time. Why? Because I didn't want to get accountable to someone, I thought that I could handle everything by myself. End of Form 3 came, and there was cell retreat. Cell retreat was just an awesome time. After word one day, we just had prayer and worship, and Suzanne I think, just asked us to say sorry to whoever we felt we had wronged before. That was a God moment. Then after that, it was the "The Night Before Christmas" play if I remember correctly, and it was fun and entertaining. I was a guard in that play.

Then Form 4 came. This was probably the year of growth. Somewhere along the year, or it might have been the end of last year, me and zach became interns in the cell. At that time, I always felt the need to prove myself, that I was the wiser and more "experienced" cell intern. I was basically competing with people which was very wrong. A few months after that, came the talk of multiplication. We had much discussions over it, smoothing out the multiplication plan and then we multiplied into two. Me and Nat were to take one cell, and Vic and Zach were to take another. When put into a position of responsibility, we really step up. I started becoming more open, learning to be more confident, etc. And wow....things really heated up during the 40 day fast&prayer. During that time I really was on fast track. The church started becoming more energetic again, the people started getting excited again, I started getting excited again. Reading the purpose driven life changed my perspective of things. And now, I finally feel like I'm doing things for the right reasons, that I finally realise that I'm God's child. I can't explain the feeling in side of me, that burning desire, that just know he's there feeling. Its awesome. How many prayers He has answered for me. Having a mentor was one. Now, I'm no longer alone, in running the race, I have people beside me supporting me, pushing me on. And in turn, I want to push and support people on as well. When I look back on my journey to where I am now, I realise how much I have changed. Praise God for all that.

This is probably such a long post, but whose life story isn't long? This is already a pretty condensed version of it. Hope you all are blessed by this.